My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1950 - 1744: A Wonderful Life

Life is not easy; no one wishes for their life to be turbulent. Everyone desires a happy day.

Zhang Yichen sees his biological mother becoming so anxious every day. He feels it’s quite pitiful. No matter how much harm his mother had caused him in the past, she will always love him. There’s no mother who doesn’t love her child; it’s just that she chose the wrong path. Knowing that she regrets it now, why should he keep holding onto the past? Holding onto the past makes everyone live in pain and unease, struggling eternally. If that’s the case, wouldn’t he also lose the kind nature within himself? He never wanted these things to happen within his family because everyone has different thoughts.

"Grandpa, there’s no need for us to delve into many things like we did in the past. As long as mom can come back, as long as our family can reunite, as long as everyone can live happily and in joy, what’s wrong with that? Let the past fade completely with the passage of time. Perhaps time truly is a medicine that will heal the inner wounds of everyone."

"We’ve rarely had a chance to reunite as a family; why let unpleasant things ruin our opportunity for happiness? We have already paid a heavy price; no one can pay it for us. Every time, the pain is ours. We should learn to look ahead, forget the unpleasant past, let my mom and dad come home, let them be together forever, isn’t it better to continue the happy and blissful life we once had?"

Old Master Zhang thinks his grandson has spoken wisely. He realizes that maybe he shouldn’t delve deeply into past issues anymore. If one keeps holding onto past things, no one can truly live a happy life. Perhaps it’s time for him to open his heart as he did before, treating everyone around him well. Why let them be harmed again and again because of his actions? Everyone struggles in pain; no one lives effortlessly.

"Maybe you’re right; perhaps I’ve been holding onto too many things. Maybe I should let go of unhappy past events and contemplate whether my actions were wrong. It’s time for me to let go of managing so many things and let their family be together. I won’t hold onto past things like I did before. But not everything can actually be forgotten; everyone has their own little secrets, which I can understand. However, repeatedly disregarding her husband, I absolutely won’t tolerate it because he’s still my biological son!"

"Maybe you all feel you can forget the past, but I can’t. You may think time is a medicine to forget all the inner trauma, but time actually has no effect. It can’t change the fact of your hurt; it only aggravates your inner pain time and again. Time is the most terrifying killer; it pulls you into despair repeatedly, leaving you with no chance to recover, only to struggle and moan in pain. It doesn’t offer recovery because time knows that once you recover, it’ll never have a chance to oppress you again!"

"Perhaps I shouldn’t complain about the injustice of heaven because heaven indeed is fair. It lets you gain one thing while losing something you love most. But I’ll never be grateful to heaven, for the pain it caused me can never be erased in my lifetime. Time and again, I recall every path I’ve chosen in the past. My only regret is losing her. I never regretted any decisions, but my biggest regret is making the wrong decisions and losing it, which is the greatest pain in my life. This pain cannot be forgotten because it remains poignant. I lost the one I loved most because of my mistakes and wrong choices. I have no way to compensate for every mistake I’ve ever made!"

No matter whether I spend this life in happiness or in the abyss of pain, it doesn’t matter to me. I wake up terrified from nightmares repeatedly. Do you know what kind of nightmare it is? Again and again, I dream of him looking at my hand, leaving me alone on the spot. Who can understand my inner pain? When I wake up from the nightmare, I find there’s no one around to help me. I discover that in my world, only I remain, in the darkness, unable to see anything. Who can understand that kind of pain? Perhaps you don’t understand what kind of hurt it is, but I can’t explain it to you. I can only endure it with my own willpower because I can’t fall. I must use all my time to think of him, accept heaven’s punishment, letting these things cause me pain repeatedly, never forgetting, then I’ll understand how wrong my actions were, hurting someone who loved me so much!"

Zhang Yichen decides to say nothing more. He knows his mother is deeply trapped, unable to get out, becoming a fearful person through repeated nightmares. His mother has been shattered by pain; he understands how deeply painful these years have been for her. He won’t hate his mother like before, because each day for her is worse than death, with someone she doesn’t love, losing a man she loved most. What kind of mental torture is this? How did she endure through these years? Should he continue to resent her like before, without offering any comfort?

"It’s getting late; let’s not talk about these things anymore. Everyone should go back to their rooms and rest early."

Beautiful life is right beside her. Ran Zhihan knows she cannot recall her past now. Maybe one day, things will naturally unfold for her to remember!